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I Love You More & I Choose You

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photo credit @Fathers Heart Ranch

*******I wrote this post towards the end of 2012 and realized this morning that I never published it because it was choppy and still needed lots of editing. And as I read it this morning I realized I have to post this before I share what has transpired over the past 24 hours. So I’m going against all the writing rules and sharing this with you- sometimes when you share your heart it’s not going to be perfect and clean.. it will be messy. So here’s my messy, transparent heart from 3 years ago. Updated blog post to follow. ***

I put out my final holiday (fall) decor, before possibly moving out of our home. It’s been wonderful living in a brand new 2 story, spacious home. We have really enjoyed it. But sometimes, when God places a dream on your heart, you will have to lay some things down in order to see the bigger picture. We’re laying down our positions as Children’s Pastors which has in some strange way been a part of our identity for more than 15 years. We are going to be without a set paycheck starting in January, and will be pursuing our Fathers heart, Father’s Heart Ranch. That being said, we will be putting our new home for sale, moving in with my in laws, and.. pulling our kids out of private Christian School to home school for a season (we think). Are we crazy? Quite possibly.

After a recent talk with our children about the possible changes, my daughter approached my husband in the kitchen. “Why can’t we just be like other normal people and just work at the same place and live in the same house and go to the same school forever?” Her question was innocent enough. Kind of made me chuckle- normal people. Huh. And then my husband told her that sometimes in order to follow God, there will be things we will have to sacrifice. We always seem to want God to drop this huge thing in our life, but are we really able to give up our lives to follow after Him?

My boys will have to move away from a neighbor that is like a brother to them (Carlos). Joel has the best little friends he’s ever had and will not be able to see them everyday anymore. My daughter has a best friend she is inseparable with. I love living one house down from my brother and sister in law and baby niece. We go for the occasional walk, we drive to the gym together 3 times a week (at 5:30 am), we are always exchanging coffee, cheese, or sugar. And I love our neighborhood- it’s all new.

And as all of my crafty friends are working on fun things from Pinterest for their home, I can’t right now. No more adding holes in the wall, no painting fun designs from those cute Martha Stewart stencils. No more worrying about trying to decorate my naked wall. In a matter of months, everything will be put into storage.

I’ve always wondered if I had minor ADD, but these particular changes have sent my brain into overdrive, where I actually feel like I’m getting less done than more. This is my brain on change: Ranch, speaking, media kit, writing, kickstarter, boxes, home-school, moving, kids choir, kids choir (see?!), kids church, my children, curriculum, teaching, homework, meals, writing (or lack there of), Jesus, help me… You see what I’m saying here? Over load. 🙂

And my mother in law was a teacher for over 15 years and at different points in their lives home-schooled her kids. My sister in law was an amazing teacher. I think if I need it, my support is there. Honestly, I heard very clearly from Him that this home school season wasn’t just about finances, it was about their hearts. I feel I’m fighting for their hearts.This is a part of our story.

And no one told my husband to quit his job, or told us to sell our house. We are just realistic and know it’s going to take some laying down of things to get there. Some sacrifices. And really, if we didn’t sacrifice anything, then our level of gratitude wouldn’t be very high. Cool- Got a ranch. Right on. But, man, when you give up something- to follow after what God is calling you to, how much sweeter will the reward be? How much more do we appreciate something God has done, when we allowed Him to take us through the process of building our faith. And that’s where we’re at. Faith is being built. We believe that God has been preparing us our entire lives for this (that will be a whole other blog) and this is way bigger than us.

So, are we crazy? Maybe. This is part of our story that God is writing for our whole family. It’s bigger than us. And I believe it will not only cause our faith to increase, but many others- to start believing God truly is who He says He is. This is a chapter that will have lots of stickie notes and yellow highlighter on it. The pages will be worn. But the story will be worth it.

What about you? What dreams has God placed on your heart? A dream is like a relationship. Sometimes, It can be kind of scary to open your heart back up if you’ve been hurt or let down by the way things turned out. But I believe God has placed it deep with in us to dream- and that our dreams are things that will bring Him glory and further the kingdom- deep desires, tucked away beneath our hearts. Ask Him today to show you if there’s something still locked up in the chambers of your heart that you’re afraid to let out. What if people laugh? What if people think you’re crazy? Or (and this is big) what if we thought we heard from God and put it all out there, and God didn’t show up? What if….. Just remember dear ones, God is always using our situations for the good as we keep our hearts on him (and continually, ask Him to check our hearts & motives). Romans 8:28- And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.    

So here goes everything, we’re diving in- keeping our eyes firmly focused on Him, trusting in faith that He has good things planned for us and will cause our faith to grow even more through all of this.

Mark 9:23- “What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.”

Yes, do it Lord.

My Prayer…

Lord, I love you more. I love you more than this temporary discomfort. I love you more than wanting to decorate and fix up my house. I love you more than wanting to stay comfortable and in the same place. I love you more than the need to buy new things or buy clothes. I love you more than this world although I will be the first to admit I am often lulled in at the first sight of color and the smells of seasons. At times I give in to the lie that “this new item is all I need” when I know you are vying for my heart. I choose you- even though the distractions are loud and they come from every direction. I choose you. It’s a daily choice. But since you are the author of this story, every time I try to take the pen, will you gently remove the pen out of my hand, and allow your Holy Spirit to write a far better story than any I can write.

I choose you.

Authentic Faith 2014

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Happy New Year!! Okay, so I know most people post their new years blog on the 1st, but I like to be different! I had been praying at the end of the year for my ‘word’ for the coming year. I know surrender is one of my words, but I knew there was something else. Then as my husband and I were driving on New Years Eve to my brother/sister in laws house I got it. Authentic Faith.

A life following after Jesus is not perfect. It’s actually quite messy. We mess up, we make mistakes, we loose our temper, and we can become easily distracted. But His mercies are new for us every morning! We have financial stresses just like everybody else. The difference between us and those who don’t know Jesus yet is that we have a Savior who walks beside us and gives us wisdom and teaches us self-control. Our families go through sickness just like other families, we just happen to serve a powerful God who can heal us if He so chooses- but He is also ever present, walking with us during our sickness. He is always with us.

In the past, women, especially those in ministry, have worked hard to maintain an image that if you follow Jesus, well, then everything is perfect. Perfect home, perfect image, perfect kids, perfect life- problem is, that image couldn’t be farther from the truth. You see, that image not only leaves us frustrated and disappointed, but also feeling like we can’t measure up. We can’t live up to the image of the perfect Christian that we’ve tried so hard to maintain. And for others watching our lives, they feel like they must be doing something wrong and they feel like failures as a Christian. They see our Facebook life and ‘think’ we have it all together. Truth is, most of the time, we just really enjoy sharing our victories with others or our favorite photos. That doesn’t mean life doesn’t carry its share of trials.

Make no mistake about it, we do not have it all together, for I fear if we did we would not need Jesus so desperately. We all have our issues. We have messes all around us- kids that throw tantrums, kids that have entitlement issues, days when our marriages are less than perfect, fears about if we’re even doing this parenting thing right, hoping we’re not messing up our kids. Some of you reading this have even cried yourself to sleep recently because, as I said before, life is messy.

We are entering a new year. I believe this is a year of authentic faith. What is authentic faith? It’s a faith that is real, transparent, lived out in front of believers and non-believers alike. Many of us have had disappointments from the previous year. If you’re breathing and you have a pulse (and I hope you do), I am sure there have been a few. And when I say authentic faith, I’m not saying to go around telling anyone available all of your deepest life problems. As Christians, we are to pray for wisdom. And God will guide and direct us to other solid Christians we can share our struggles with. But authentic is real. Its ‘welcome to my beautiful messy life’.

Living a life of authentic faith points us, all of us, to something that the world is desperately trying to find- hope. The opposite of despair is hope. And as a follower and friend of Jesus, we can have hope. Hope in God that He will restore and make all things new. We have hope in a Savior that has promised to walk with us no matter what we go through. He is near to the brokenhearted. No matter what the enemy tries to throw at us, my God has the final say and the last Word! And on the other side of this mountain He will take us to a place where there’s no more tears, no more pain, and no more suffering. I pray that by living a life of authentic faith, I just might be able to take a few people with me. Not fake, but real. Real is refreshing. There is freedom in our stories, and our stories make up who we are. People can relate to that much more than us having it all together.

The number one enemy of authentic faith is fear of man. What will people think? What if I write something that people criticize? What if I share my struggles and people don’t think I have enough faith? What if… what if… what if. There will always be more than enough ‘what-ifs”. Here’s a couple of scriptures to help you with being worried about what people think (fear of man)-

Acts 5:29 I am a God-pleaser, not a people-pleaser. I obey God before man.

1 Cor. 4:3-4 I am not controlled by what people think of me. As long as God is satisfied with me I am satisfied.

Gal. 1:10- I don’t try to be popular with people. All I want to do is the will of God.

I don’t want to tip-toe around, always worried about what others think. I want to use my gifts, talents, and abilities to live for the Lord. If that means writing something that doesn’t get very many comments, then I will write for the sake of the gift and craft God has given me. Life isn’t a popularity contest, although I will admit, it feels like it at times. Being authentic is truly honoring the person that God has made you to be. The good , the bad, and the ugly. It means that we stop comparing ourselves with how everyone else is doing it, and we do things the way we feel like God has called us to do things- for us, for our families, for our friends, and for our lives. Authentic; real; transparent; refreshing.

So who’s with me in this New Year of 2014?! Together we truly can be a light to a dark place. Let’s show others that though we don’t have it all together, we know Someone who does!

Lord, Help me to walk out my faith in this coming year. Messy houses, messy kids, messy cars, messy lives- but You Lord can turn a mess into a masterpiece! It is my hearts desire to put You first in this new year and I know that everything else in my life will flow from that. I am so over trying to act like I have it all together, because that’s not real. But what’s real is that You’ve promised to carry me through all that I go through. And You can even surprise me with joy when I least expect it. I pray that as I encounter obstacles, challenges, and even heartaches in this new year, that I would face those obstacles standing on Your Word, spending time in Your presence, and just seeking You. Let Your Word be a light to my path in the coming new year.

In Jesus name, amen!

 John 16:33- “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

 

The Most High Is Thinking About Me Right Now

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Psalms 40:17~ As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord is thinking about me right now.

I was feeling left out. I know they didn’t mean to hurt my feelings by not inviting me, but nonetheless, I was hurt. I saw the pictures of the fun night appear online. Maybe they just forgot. I can’t stay hurt about something that was unintentional. So I did what I always do, I took my disappointments to the Lord.

As I poured out my heart, and searched His Word for answers, peace began to pour over me. I read this scripture from Psalms 40:17- As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord is thinking about me right now. I cannot even begin to tell you how powerful a word is in due season. I realized that no matter what disappointments I faced, that He is always, continuously thinking about me. I am always on His mind- always. And that to me is more important than what I am (or am not) invited to. Others might not always be thinking of me, but the God of this world is. And because of this revelation, I am able to let go of offenses and know that I am more than enough. He has made me exactly who He has called me to be- regardless of what others think.

Oh, how humbled I am to know that You, Lord are always thinking of me. I am always on your mind. Help me to let go of offenses, to not be easily offended, and to not put such high expectations on others. Help me to be free in knowing how loved I am by you, at all times.  Thank you that I am always on your mind. Amen.

Following Naked After God

With my closest friends, I can pretty much talk about anything. And even when I’m feeling rather rambunctious (at smaller wedding showers) I’ve been able to let loose about personal subject matter that others might shy away from. It’s fun and it’s just me! When God called me to write and speak, I knew that the power of my testimony would be in revealing the good, the bad, and the ugly. It’s just who I am. I know personally, if you tell me a bunch of facts as if reading straight from a paper, I will say, “That’s nice.” “Good information.” But when you add your story, then I’m hooked. I love people who can share their lives in all its natural form. No sugar coating or apologies, just, “This is who I am, love me or leave me, but this is me.” I’ve always respected people like that and in my writing, tried to stretch myself, in the truth of my life. But what I have come to realize in this journey was that it is a little uncomfortable sharing really personal stuff. That’s why I have such a high respect for others that do it. When we write about our past abuse and addictions, it feels like we’re naked in front of the world. And some may want to help cover us while others may want to throw stones. But what I’ve also come to realize through this journey of following whole-heartedly after God was that I’m not baring my soul for the people that are quick to judge and criticize. God’s asked me to be a communicator and bare my soul for those that realize they too have been there and just might possibly still be there. I reach out to those who realize we all have our issues and not one is worthy of throwing the first stone. When I hit submit on a blog, do I ever feel vulnerable? Every. Single. Time. So why do I do it? Because the more I can share my story and how God delivered me, and share how Gods helping me with stuff we all go through, the more I allow the light to overtake the darkness. The definition of vulnerable is: capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt, as by a weapon: a vulnerable part of the body. When we are vulnerable before man, we do leave ourselves susceptible to being hurt by someone, feeling naked. But here’s what the Word says: Psalms 118:6- The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? Psalms 56:11- In God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me?

 Adam and Eve were fine running around naked until they realized that they had messed up. Then in shame they tried to cover themselves. In becoming truth tellers and sharing our stuff, we allow God to remove the fig leaves and He lets us run around naked so to speak. Truth shines the light on sin and darkness. The more we are okay with the fact that we’re not perfect and we never will be, the more leaves God is able to remove. The enemy wants us to be ashamed and hide all of our faults and weaknesses so no one will know and just think we’ve got it all together. But the more we can show others we don’t always have it all together, we have a messy past, we don’t know how to be perfect parents, etc. the more we will give God the chance to shine on all of our weaknesses. 2 Cor. 12:10- That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

So on that topic of feeling naked in front of the world, Jon and I have stepped out in pursuing what God has placed on our hearts. A family ranch here in South Texas. Our heart is especially in fighting for the fatherless. And having a place for all kids to experience camps, farming, swimming, animals, and a time of ministry. We have already stepped out six months ago when we quit our jobs, sold our house and moved in with my husband’s parents. But this week marks a whole new level of nakedness. Lets see when I say the word if you cringe for a second- fundraising. You did, I saw it! It’s okay. It took us like a year to be okay with this process. And honestly, no matter what happens through this process, God is changing us and we’re okay with whatever He chooses to do. (Obviously, even if we weren’t okay with it, He would still do it, so it’s better to be okay with it!).  We have a peace. We have stopped trying to figure out how this thing is all going to come together in our own brain. Just like the Israelites, when God asked them to cross over the Jordan River (Joshua Chapters 3 & 4). He didn’t say to wait until the water stopped rushing and then they could step out, oh no, he said get your feet wet. Step out and trust Me. And the scripture goes on to say that it was harvest season (the snow had melted) and the waters were rushing (Joshua 3:15). The priests were carrying the ark of the covenant of the Lord and they were told to cross over first. Then the Israelites followed. It’s the same for us. The ark of the covenant of the Lord represents Gods presence, and we are not following after a man or a project, but Gods presence. And this is where He’s leading us. He leads, we follow.

I was telling a friend yesterday, I feel naked. It’s a vulnerable spot to be in. I’m not going to lie, I hear crickets chirping and they’re louder than they’ve ever been. Stepping out like this has caused us to be completely dependent on God.  Being naked and putting ourselves out there also carries a weight to it. God has placed a huge responsibility on us when it comes to handling other peoples hard earned money. It’s a humbling experience like no other. We are accountable to God on how we allocate those funds and we do not take lightly the weight of that responsibility.

Being vulnerable, naked, is a process that the Lord has been walking us through. Just right at the very exact moment when we need a word, a seed, something- God has shown Himself and through His people has shown up. I think it’s significant that the first person to donate on this campaign was a single mom. Completely humbled. She’s why we’re doing what we’re doing. Right there. She sent us a message and had us both in tears. I asked Jon if we were going to cry everyday. He said maybe. We’re in it. There’s no turning back now. We’re invested, naked and all for the world to see. We’re stepping out into the raging Jordan waters, trusting God to bring us safely to the other side.

Regardless of the end results, we trust God and no matter what happens we will shout, “He is good!” We trust His character and Who He is, even if we don’t understand everything. He has taken us on a journey that has strengthened us and brought us closer to Him. We are learning to say yes even when we don’t see the whole picture or have every single detail worked out. Truly when you take on something bigger than you, that the Lord has asked of you, you are acknowledging to Him, “Unless you do a miracle Lord, it’s not going to happen!”

I wonder if there’s something that the Lords been asking of you lately? Is it something that scares you? It just might be exactly what He wants you to step out in faith and do. Do you ever feel vulnerable and naked when you step out? Just trust Him for His perfect timing and He’ll use your story for His glory. Always. Everything we do… points back to Him.

Lord, help us in this journey that we’re on. Help us to step out in faith even when we feel vulnerable and naked in front of the world. Help us not worry about what others think, but keep our eyes focused on You. Help us to step out even when the waters are raging. Let our lives be an offering unto You and may we choose today to live our lives to bring You glory. In Jesus name, Amen.

 

The Land of Comfort and Her Neighbor Fear

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If we’re going to go somewhere with God, sometimes we need to let go of where we’ve been. ~Beth Moore

There is a land that is all too familiar. It is a place that is neither fun nor daring, but it is a safe place. It is a familiar place. In this land, you always know what will take place. There are not too many unexpected turns or twists. This is a comfortable place: our favorite chair, our usual meals, our daily rituals. We have grown accustomed to this land. It neither calls us to move forward nor step out into the unknown. In many ways, this land has grown on us with its familiar surroundings. This is the land of Comfort.

Travel with me to her neighbor, Fear. We don’t recognize her right away. She’s sneaky, this neighbor. In her land we remain. We do the expected and walk in ways not to offend. We dare not make any sudden moves. We understand that people have come to have expectations of us, so we mustn’t cause the waters to ripple and otherwise risk their disapproval. But the problem with these sibling neighbors are that the Lord never intended for you, for us, to camp here quite so long. Oh, but it’s safe we think. But is it?

I am comfortable, because deep down I am afraid. Welcome, comfort and fear. Being comfortable has a way of causing us to stay in one place and become complacent. We have heard the Lord at different points in our life call us to step out of the boat; “but Lord, that water looks cold.” And before we know it, we’ve traveled to the neighborhood of fear. “I would, Lord, but what if I fail?”

I am going to admit something to you about my land of fear. The Lord told me it was way past time to talk to my kids (especially my 11 year old) about the basics of where we came from and sex. I’m not going to lie. I started in the place of comfort (maybe this will all just go away) and drove right on over to the place of straight-up fear.

No longer was this just something I knew I needed to do, but this thing had taken root in me and actually held me in bondage. I grew up learning everything about this subject the wrong way and from the wrong people. I was terrified I was going to say it wrong; or worse, what if the words didn’t come out right? I didn’t want to confuse my children even more. I camped in the land of fear for far too long. I was blessed to share this with my mommy group one night, and was given a great resource to use (God’s Design for Sex by Stan and Brenna Jones). And after giving this stronghold up to the Lord, I did it! I cannot tell you how good it felt to move out of these neighborhoods and into what the Lord had asked of me! And we are not done, but now that I’ve stepped out I know I can do it!

What about you? Is there something the Lord is calling you to do, whether big or small and somehow the enemy has you convinced that comfort and fear will always be your place of residence? This was a small example of me moving out of those neighborhoods. I also have felt the Lord stirring some things up in me that will require much preparation and sacrifice. I know there are areas where I need to sharpen the gifts that He has given me and I will need to take some practical steps to get there. It will not be comfortable and fear has already been knocking on my door, but I refuse to let her stop me!

I love the story of Moses. If there is someone whom I feel I can most definitely relate to, it’s my man Moses. In Exodus 3, God calls out to Moses from a burning bush. This is where He calls Moses to deliver the Israelites from slavery under Pharaoh’s evil hand. In verse 10 He says, “Now I am sending you.” And here’s what Moses says (verse 11): “But who am I to appear before Pharaoh? … How can you expect me to lead the Israelites out of Egypt?” In verse 12 God told him, “I will be with you”. Throughout the chapter, Moses protests. Then in Exodus 4:1 Moses protests again. “Look, they won’t believe me! They won’t do what I tell them.” (Looks like someone is driving around the land of fear).

Exodus 4:10: But Moses pleaded with the Lord (I’ve done this), “Oh Lord, I’m just not a good speaker: I never have been, and I’m not now, even after You have spoken to me. I’m clumsy with words.” I love the Lord’s response in verse 11: “Who makes mouths?” the Lord asks Him. “Who makes people so they can speak or not speak, hear or not hear, see or not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go and do as I have told you, I will help you speak well, and I will tell you what to say.” In verse 13, Moses pleads again with the Lord and straight up asks Him to just send someone else!

It says this in the Matthew Henry Commentary: “Moses still continues reluctant in the service for which God had intended for him; now we can no longer impute it to his humility and modesty, but we must admit that there was too much of cowardice (fear), slothfulness (comfortable), and unbelief in it.” As most of us know, God did use Moses in a great and mighty way. He used him to deliver the people and did many miracles through him.

My personal story is this: I feel at some point the Lord wants me to speak more and share my story. A lot of people know me as an extrovert, so they might think that this would be very easy for me. I will tell you right now, I turn into mush at the thought of speaking. Mush. Jello. Yep. And then in the area of writing–I know He wants to use me in this area, but here’s a little confession: I failed typing class. I was too busy writing notes to my friends. I never followed through and even as I type this, I am slower than molasses and have to look at my keyboard. (The Lord sure has a sense of humor, doesn’t He?!)

What is the Lord is asking you to do? Does he want you to drive as fast as you can out of those ‘comfortable’ neighborhoods? Is He calling you to do it in spite of the land of fear that you seem to drive through all the time? The one thing I know of the Lord is that where He has appointed, He has anointed! Beth Moore has this to say on this subject: “We’re going to have to press through our land of fear to get to the land of promise. If we think that we can’t do it because we’re scared of it, that’s probably why it is exactly it! Go do it scared. There’s no way to get experience other than to just do it.”

She goes on to say that every time she would go up to speak that her knees would knock for the first 15 minuets. She said to herself, “I’m just going to have to let ‘em knock!” We need to humble ourselves & admit we are scared, but if this is what the Lord has put on our heart, then we just need to do it!

Lord, You know our hearts. You know the areas where we have become comfortable. You know the areas where fear still has a hold on us. Would You help us to confess those areas to You? Today I ask that those dreams that are placed deep inside our hearts would no longer be buried by comfort and fear. We give these dreams up to You and ask that You would show us what steps we need to take. Lord, that our lives would bring You glory. In Jesus’ name, amen.

                                           Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 

If You Want Me To

Well, here I am, In Brownsville Texas. The Lord spoke to me this morning through this song. I must tell you how fitting this song is for me right now. The song has a line that says ‘I’m gonna walk through the valley If You want me to’. Where I now live is actually called ‘The Valley’. Here’s the thing you need to understand, I’m not in a ‘bad’ place- just an unfamiliar place. Someone asked me the other day, “What are you doing tomorrow?”. By no means a strange question or even insensitive. But in my particular transition into ‘The Valley’ I had to say “I don’t know”. Now, if you are reading this and know me very well, you would know that I haven’t said I don’t know about my days in a very long time. And it caught me off guard. I need a part time job, I want to sit and write for hours and start submitting for stuff, I have paperwork I need to fill out, oh..I have laundry to do. But I’m feeling a little out of sorts if you will. I don’t have my set routines yet, no close girlfriends (yet) to call up for coffee, not in my own house (yet), and even my first grocery shopping experience was a bit strange. Don’t get me wrong, I love being here and having all this amazing family close by. I am writing this for anyone who is in a new and unfamiliar place. Your surroundings have changed and it might take you a while to find your spot. Just remember, as this song says, “You never said it would be easy, You only said I’d never go alone”. That’s comforting to know that even when we feel like our life is unfamiliar and out of sorts, we will never have to go in it alone. Pray this video ministers to you, as it did me.

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Hebrews 13:5 . . . God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”

Lord, for those of us going through change in our lives right now, help us to seek You for direction, show us which way to walk, open the doors you want us to walk in, and close those doors that are not of You. Help us to be true to the person you have called us to be. Give us strength as we forge a new path; a new adventure with You Lord. Thank you for leading and guiding us and causing us to depend on You and trust You more than ever. Our lives are in Your hands. In Jesus name, Amen.

In Need Of A Savior

I can still picture him, a young man, in his early 20’s. He usually wore a gray pinstriped suit, with a crisp white shirt. He was always smiling. “What’s he so happy about?”, I often wondered. I was working my evening job at the dry cleaners. I greeted him with, “What’ll it be, starch or no starch?”

After about a month, he invited me to his Bible Study. “I’m sorry, what did you say?”  “A group of us meet every week and have Bible Study”.  As I leaned over the counter with my poor excuse for a tank top and my ripped shorts, I thought to myself, “This guys got a lot of guts, asking someone like me to a Bible study!” He obviously knew nothing about me. I couldn’t be caught dead in a church, let alone in a Bible Study.  Seriously, I’m the girl with the broken down life. I go to clubs and sports bars, not churches.

But he was persistent, that one. Or should I say that God was persistent. My life was a mess. Why in the world would this squeaky clean God want anything to do with a girl like me?  “Okay already, I’ll go to one”.  And something happened that night. I heard God’s Word for the first time in my life. And a light broke through a very dark place in my heart. His Holy Presence washed over me like a flood in the night. I realized that He died for me- a broken down mess in need of a Savior.

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