Category Archives: Poems

Seeing God- A Poem

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I didn’t notice Him at first

Didn’t even know He was there

But when I looked all around

It was His hand in my every day affairs

At first, quite subtle

Then my eye looked even more

And every time I looked back

It was Him, opening and closing the door

In the beginning, those closed doors made me mad

But looking back through my years

it had made me realize He had

He had His hand in everything

And everything was His hand

There was nothing that didn’t pass through Him

And His purposes were rather grand

For although it didn’t look like it

And my understanding was bleak

I now can flip the pages of my book

And see His story, unique

His story in me woven through every fabric

Every wrinkle, every line, every color

Without Him, the ending’s tragic

And when I learned to resist no more

And walked through the open door

I found a lesson so rich, so right

He taught Me to rest in His Words at night

He taught me to let go of those things bound by fear

Because the lesson in my story is that He is always near

Always near to me, never letting go

And His love abounds, this I know

So I resist no more, and my eyes are open wide

His presence, in every moment, His Spirit in me resides.

 

 

 

When the World Goes Crazy

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When the world goes crazy
There is still beauty all around
When the world goes crazy
There is still love to be found
When the world goes crazy
Through the dark I see the light
When the world goes crazy
I can always find You in my night
When the world goes crazy
It’s my raging heart you calm
When the world goes crazy
You sing to me Your Psalms
When the world goes crazy
My hand you hold and won’t let go
When the world goes crazy
I know You’re near to crush every foe

When the world goes crazy
And it all just breaks your heart
Pain and sickness, sorrow too
Every taste is tart
When the world goes crazy
And exhaustion fills your soul
Look to the One who made you
Who is still in control

Look up He says- your heart is safe
The safest place to be
When the world goes crazy
His heart is always home to me

 

Come Back to Me

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This month is National Poetry Month. I used to write poetry in High School. They were a little dark, but it was my way of expressing how I was feeling. So in Honor of National Poetry Month, you will see a few more poems in my posts. Writers Digest has a challenge going on to write one poem a day for the month of April, so that’s what I have been doing. Every now and then when I’m feeling brave, I will share them here.

The following poem is for anyone who has ever felt distant from God. We could search for so many other things, but truly, only His love satisfies. And all you have to do is call out to Him- He is waiting with open arms. We go through times where it’s so quiet, you wonder where God is. He is here.

Jeremiah 29:13- You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Come Back to Me

I’m reaching out

Or can’t you hear?

I’m calling through the stratosphere

 Day after day after day

I feel as if we are further away

 But I’m desperate for one more dance

Look my way

See my glance

 My heart is heavy almost cold

And I need to feel the love you hold

 I cry out

But do you not see?

Every ember that was once in me

 The fire was there

Your love was sought

But now icicles grow where you are not

 Return to me

For I cannot bear

One more day without you there

 For you are faithful

When I am not

And it’s for your tenderness

That I have fought

 I will not give up

I will not give in

For it is your love that covers my sin

 Come back to me

And me to you

For this is the only love that will ever do

What I Want for Valentine’s Day

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Would you like a box of chocolates?
Or perhaps a dozen long stemmed roses?
Maybe a fancy dinner where everyone turns up their noses?
An expensive massage, you seem a bit up tight?
Maybe a stuffed bear to keep you warm at night?
No, no… Don’t let commercialism take you for a ride
I need the waves and the flow of the rolling tide
I’m really just a simple girl
Drive me in the car and take me for a whirl
To the beach is where I want to be
Listening to the waves coming crashing at me
The salty air, the breezy warm sun
Now that’s what I call having fun!
Let the cool sand bury my toes
Why would you think I should need a rose?
Let the seagulls fly by and time stand still
This would be my greatest Valentines thrill

The Struggle

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This struggle

This fight to survive

A place at times so challenging

We wonder if we’ll make it out alive

A place so deep

And so intense

Our emotions keep telling us to run

And hide near the fence

But we fight

And we thrust

Because this life is worth it

And we must

Lord, I stop running

And trying to push it down

I fight for this life

And I aim for the crown

My only request as I freefall into the deep

Is that you would give me the strength to live fully aware

My soul not to sleep

Through it all, change must take place

My heart cannot stay untouched

In this crazy race

Transform me, and change me

And make me more like You

Allow me to feel every pain, every joy- until you’re through

Because on the other side is a joy so real, and a love so deep

That those emotions cannot be obtained

Until I’ve awakened from my sleep

Whatever it takes, however hot the fire

I’m so over going through the motions

It is You I desire.

 

 I fight for the light to stay on in the dark, because in the end, if that means You, I will cry out from the depths of my soul- it is well. Whatever the cost, it is well with my soul.

 

 

 

 

I Thought I Wanted New

His presence

I thought I wanted new
A house with perfect walls
A place never touched
by other peoples falls
I thought I wanted new
an outfit with fresh colors
A new look for me
that’s better than the others
I thought I wanted new
A change in scenery is good
a new bedspread would be perfect
As women, it’s understood
Freshen up these walls
and change the decor a bit
That will make me happy
well, I’m just sure of it
I thought I wanted new
I thought I wanted new
A new appliance in the kitchen
then my dinner they would no longer be a’ pitchin
that would change my family life
and then my cooking would be suffice
But then the walls got dirty
And the trends faded fast
The colors in the bedspread
well, I should have known they wouldn’t last
The new picture frames and art decor
began to collect dust
and bills came in that I couldn’t pay
because I thought these things were a must
And that new appliance that was suppose to change my game?
Well, it’s underneath my cabinet And yet my cooking remains the same
and I have come to the shocking realization that
no matter what I have
that I thought I wanted new
When it really boils down to it
All I really wanted was You!

Mathew 6:21- Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

We seek and we search. We see all the things we must have. We peruse the mall with all the things we think we need and so desperately want. And these things, in our mind will fill us with happiness and joy. Our hearts shout, “If I just had ______” The upbeat Christmas music is playing. Everything is covered in red, white, and green bling. We walk by the Bath & Body Shop with the cinnamon vanilla scents calling to us, “Smell me, buy me!” and we need it, right? The extravagant Christmas decor makes us think, “If only my house looked as pretty as this display, it would be filled with warmth and joy.” And everyone, with their shopping bags full, is looking so gleeful, so content with their bags. Is it an illusion? A moment fading as quickly as the sun sets?

I tell you dear ones, there is no package that can bring you joy. There is no box that can fill you with peace. There is no gift that once put on the walls will be the end of your search- to calm the chaos in your heart.
There is but one thing, one Person, one holy and amazing Savior. Yet, we search. We look everywhere else to have our needs met. When only One was meant to fill that every need, every longing, that eternal thirst for more. And that, my friends, is Jesus. It is Him and time spent with Him. It will cost you nothing, He paid everything.
If you find yourself this holiday season thinking more is the answer, well, you just might be on to something. But before you jump in the car and run to the mall to let everyone know what you need, might I challenge you a bit?

You do need more, this much is true. When you find yourself searching, and more just isn’t enough, look up. Stop. Be still. Be quiet before your Maker. You, my friends are standing on holy ground. Your heart is hungry and no gadget will ever meet its every need. No appliance will ever stop that longing for peace. The new outfit won’t get you out of the corner at that office party and stop that loneliness you feel in large crowds.

The more places you rush to, the harder it will be to hear that still small voice that whispers, “If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.” (Jer. 29:13) “Here I am,” He whispers. Before you head out looking for the next thing that is sure to bring you peace, stop. Enjoy Him. Allow him to fill your empty places. Marvel in his Word. He is your more. And then go out already filled to enjoy and celebrate the wonder of His amazing birth. The gifts He has for you will never rot or collect dust. Their very value has only eternal worth.

Oh my Lord, how I long for more of you. How I desperately desire to be filled by you. The things of this world are fleeting. I hold my hand open, holding these things lightly, yet clinging for dear life to you- because you are life. These temporary desires at times try to lure my thoughts and affections. Forgive me. It is you that I seek after. It is you that my heart is hungry and thirsty for. You are my treasure and I desire more of you. It is because of you that we celebrate another Christmas season. Help me to remember the best gift ever given- your Son. Truly, only you can satisfy.

Matt 6:33~ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

I Thought I Wanted New

I thought I wanted new
A house with perfect walls
A place never touched
by other peoples falls
I thought I wanted new
an outfit with fresh colors
A new look for me
that’s better than the others
I thought I wanted new
A change in scenery is good
a new bedspread would be perfect
As women, it’s understood
Freshen up these walls
and change the decor a bit
That will make me happy
well, I’m just sure of it
I thought I wanted new
I thought I wanted new
A new appliance in the kitchen
then my dinner they would no longer be a’ pitchin
that would change my family life
and then my cooking would be suffice
But then the walls got dirty
And the trends faded fast
The colors in the bedspread
well, I should have known they wouldn’t last
The new picture frames and art decor
began to collect dust
and bills came in that I couldn’t pay
because I thought these things were a must
And that new appliance that was suppose to change my game?
Well, it’s underneath my cabinet                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     And yet my cooking remains the same
and I have come to the shocking realization that
no matter what I have
that I thought I wanted new
When it really boils down to it
All I really wanted was You!

Mathew 6:21- Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

Winds of Change

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It feels a little scary

The wind that’s blowing in

It gets me up

Out of my seat

And like a blaze

Comes crashing in

Without a sound

Its presence is here

And no invitation is needed

My heart is pounding

My stomach is turning

The unknown just sends me

churning

But to be fully alive

Is what you’ve called us to

To follow you, no matter

Where that leads

I will answer the call

With a knocking

In my knees

And trembling in my voice

Because change has entered

The scene

And he’s waiting for me

Waiting for me step out of the boat

And quite possibly

Maybe for the first time even

To truly live

Past the gates of comfort

Through the known

And into the sea

Of destiny

Carry me Lord

As I step out of the boat

Trembling and swaying

I can hardly see through the fog

But you see what lies ahead

And saw this moment

Before its coming

So welcome

Change

Pull up a chair

Fear

I’m jumping in anyways

I’ve got to live this life

Authentic and true

To be the best me

That my God has called me to be

 

 

 

 

 

 

These Dreams

When I first thought

The perfect life

I imagined comfort

I imagined a place that

Was predictable

And everything was known

A place that was run by a schedule

And all was made

To fall into place

Like clockwork

The checks would come in

Exactly the same

Each month

You in your office

Me in the house

Our roles perfectly

Worked out

Clock in

Clock out

Day in and day out

The life would be quite

Simple

With little change to fear

But as the years have gone by

I realized God made you differently

A box could not hold you in

As much as you tried to make it work

I realized that your walls were caving in

Breathe, you could not

As the walls became more constricting each day

I realized you could not

Be put into a box

And your dreams were bigger than

I thought

I enjoyed my security

While dreaming of what stepping out

Might look like

And you took me there

To dream a dream

Bigger than my eyes could see

Bigger than my fears and insecurity

The shouts of the naysayers grew louder and louder in my head

You’ll never make it

In this economy you need more than a dream

You should be happy with a decent paying job

You’re in ministry

That’s what you want, isn’t it?

In this economy, are you crazy?

But I had to know that God was calling us

To something different

Not necessarily bigger or better

But different

Fitting for the mold that He had made us to be

It’s not an everyone mold

And it certainly isn’t safe

But I realized that trying to hold you down

Holding us down

Was not the answer

And we weren’t called to comfortable

We were never called to easy

We can’t live someone else’s dream

We must step into our own

Why did God give us dreams bigger than ourselves?

Why would He do such a thing?

Because He knows it will have to be Him that

Ultimately fulfills these dreams

Through us

It gives me no greater joy than to

Take this journey with you

And explore whatever

God has for us

 

 

The Burden

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This battle that rages within me is far too deep to see

The confusion in my heart is for only you and me

For I cannot stand against thee

Only with thy hand in mine

For if I thought you might leave me

I’d be lost like hours of time

But your vow was forever

Eternity was promised

And so I take my life in yours

knowing I won’t be abolished

You understand my humanness

And my weakness you see

You speak to the raging within me

With one word, in peace I breathe

This heaviness I carry is far too wide for me

But you my Lord have taken it

When you paid that penalty

There is no way to repay you

For the love that bled for me

Nothing I could work out

That would ever set me free

Freedom comes when one can see

That this death was paid for you and me

Now off this burden

Lay to rest weary soul

To you my Savior

I give you control

I can no longer carry it

Or make it on my own

So I give you this life

Releasing my strife

Rugged and worn

Blistered and bruised

I am nothing but lost

Unless by you I am used