Monthly Archives: May 2013

The Struggle

Sun Rising over Lake Tochigi-ken, Japan

This struggle

This fight to survive

A place at times so challenging

We wonder if we’ll make it out alive

A place so deep

And so intense

Our emotions keep telling us to run

And hide near the fence

But we fight

And we thrust

Because this life is worth it

And we must

Lord, I stop running

And trying to push it down

I fight for this life

And I aim for the crown

My only request as I freefall into the deep

Is that you would give me the strength to live fully aware

My soul not to sleep

Through it all, change must take place

My heart cannot stay untouched

In this crazy race

Transform me, and change me

And make me more like You

Allow me to feel every pain, every joy- until you’re through

Because on the other side is a joy so real, and a love so deep

That those emotions cannot be obtained

Until I’ve awakened from my sleep

Whatever it takes, however hot the fire

I’m so over going through the motions

It is You I desire.


 I fight for the light to stay on in the dark, because in the end, if that means You, I will cry out from the depths of my soul- it is well. Whatever the cost, it is well with my soul.







You know me.

You know my insecurities, you know the secret place of my heart. You know the areas where I am raw. You know the places where I put up a wall. You know the emotions that I try to stuff down so that no one would see them.  You know everything about me. When I lie down and when I rise, my every thought, and the dark places of my heart. You saw me before I was formed in my mothers womb. You had already written my life in your book before one day had passed.

You want me.

You want to spend time with me. You wait for me. You believe in me. And you trust me with your Word. You won’t leave me, and you won’t hurt me, and you won’t let me go.

You love me.

You love me in spite of me. You saved me when I was knee deep in sin. You carried me when I could no longer walk, and you watched over me as I slept. There’s not one thing I could do to make you love me more. On the days where I’m a mess, you call me beautiful. On the days when I want to hide, you pursue my heart. Your love for me isn’t based on anything I can do for you- it’s just because you love me, unconditionally, eternally, and always.

Praying today you would experience Gods love for you. His love knows no end.

Zeph. 3:17- The Lord your God in the midst of you is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over you with joy; he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.