Monthly Archives: July 2009

Amazing Love


I remember when I first gave my heart to Jesus- 15 years ago. I had never really been to church (I say never really, because when invited, I went physically but mentally I wasn’t really there) and I have no memory of ever opening a Bible. In my first 20 years of life I lived a very long and hard life. I had always looked to people to fill my void, my love tank. And yet, my love tank was always running on empty. I will never forget the first time I asked Jesus into my heart and God began showing me how much He loved me. I remember learning the worship songs, and singing them with all my heart. I remember that I couldn’t stop weeping in His presence because His love for me was overwhelming. He didn’t care where I had been or what I had done. All I remember was hearing the Lord say over and over “I love you…you are mine…I love you…”And as weeks turned into months (and now years), He has washed 20 years of hardness, sadness, loneliness, brokenness, and emptiness away- washed away by His love for me.

In exchange He has filled my life with such joy, peace, and unshakable faith in Him no matter what I go through. I will forever be grateful that the maker of the universe, the ruler of the skies, God Almighty- loves me this much. I am humbled and in awe of how much He loves us.  His love is unconditional, unchanging. His love is relentless which means He will never give up pursuing us.

Okay, here’s the amazing thing about Gods love (that I’m still learning and growing in each day)- There is nothing you can do to make God love you more than He already loves you today. Stop and let that soak in for a moment. No ministry, no mission, no good works will earn His love for you.  He loves you so much and nothing will ever change that. It is the most selfless, perfect love.
On the flip-side- No mess up, selfishness, or wrong doing on our part will ever make God love you less. This is not to say that there aren’t consequences for our actions- but let’s not confuse that with Gods love.
You see, His love, unlike some earthly love, is not based on actions, performance or what we do or don’t do. His love for you is based solely and purely on who He is. And God is love! 1 John 4:8b God is love.  Nothing will ever change His love, His desire, and His affections for you.  Song of Solomon 2:4b His banner over me is love.  There is freedom in that love. Because of His love for me, I want to love and serve Him even more, not out of duty or obligation, but out of love.
Pray that God would give you a revelation of His love for you.  I encourage you today at some point in your day to sneak away to a secret place with Him. Ask Him to reveal His love for you. This isn’t about a ‘religion’. No, this is about a love story between you and your Maker. This is about a ‘love’ relationship. And He is here, right now, just waiting to show you just how much He loves you!

Jeremiah 31:3 (Message Bible)

God told them, “I’ve never quit loving you and never will.  Expect love, love, and more love!”

Even If No One’s Watching

Beautiful Eyes

I went for a run this morning before it got too hot. I know this might sound silly to some, but when I’m running- whether it’s on the track at the gym or outside, I imagine that the people are watching me. It’s like they’re my audience and I don’t want to let them down. Whenever I think of stopping I say to myself, must keep going. This morning was an unusually quiet morning. Not too much traffic, the sidewalks were quiet. I heard the Lord in His still small voice as He spoke to my heart. Would you do it even if no one was watching? Well of course Lord! It’s You and me, and together we can do anything! Then I heard it again. Would you serve me even if no one was watching. Would you continue to pray to me even if you didn’t hear anything. Even in the dry times. Would you still love and live for Me? If you weren’t in the limelight and no one knew who you were, would you still live for Me? If no one ever read your blogs, and your gifts stopped for a time, would you still love Me?

Lord, I say today- even if no one was watching, my life is yours.

Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Luke 22:42 “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

Fill Er’ Up


We are like a car with high gas mileage. God is the gas. We need to fill up- alot! If you start running on fumes, I encourage you to head to the nearest gas station, immediately! And the great thing is- It’s all free! No waiting,no lines, no fee. That’s right, no cost to pull your little car over into God’s ‘Shell’! 🙂

People Who Leave Footprints On Our Hearts

Businessman Leaving Footprints in the Sand

Isn’t it funny how the thought of a certain time period in our lives brings back memories of people. I think back to my time in Palm Springs and I’m quickly reminded of my old roommates. I often wonder what ever happened to them. I also think about the small group of people who led me to the Lord and discipled me. I often wonder if they realize the huge impact they made in my life because of the time they invested in me.
I’m sure if you went back to your High School years or your college days, there are people that just come to mind. Unfortunately, there are also people, who, instead of leaving footprints, have more like, trampled on your heart! And perhaps there are people that it just hurts to think about- either we hurt them or they hurt us. Those are the ones that we really don’t want to dwell on too much.
I think sometimes, when we’re in the moment, just living our day to day lives, we’re not thinking about who’s in our circle and how we will look back at these years. Or flip the coin. Who in our circle will look back in about ten years and you will come to their mind. You see, in our day to day living, we need to live on purpose.
Those coffee trips with a girlfriend, those girls nights, those women retreats where you spend half the weekend bawling with girlfriends. Those phone calls you’ve made even when the last thing you felt like doing was talking on the phone, the funny card you sent to lift someones spirits. All of these things will go into the scrapbook of our hearts as the years pass, and we say, “remember when?”.
Even as I write this, I am sure there are people leaving footprints on your heart and likewise you are touching lives, making memories. Leaving your own prints on what is now the present and will someday be the past.
In this season of your life I encourage you to live on purpose- And yes, footprints will follow.

1 Thess. 5:11 Therefore comfort one another and edify one another , just as you also are doing

Called To Bloom


Bloom (verb):  To grow or to flourish; to shine; prosper.

“Lord, how do I bloom? How do I live a life that shines for You? How can I be all that you’ve called me to be? “ For the longest time, I used to think God couldn’t use me unless everything was perfect in my life. I felt like I had to be in His Word daily, spending a certain amount of time each morning in prayer, fasting regularly, praying in my prayer language without ceasing, supporting kids in Africa, exercising love, joy, peace, patience, and self control.  And the ‘to-do’ list continued on.  And then I had the heart issues. In order for God to use me, I thought I had to be healed from my past, walking out that healing every moment of my life. I also had to be living a life of forgiveness. I was so good at making my lists.
My conversation with the Lord might sound something like this:
“What, Lord, you want me to lead that Bible Study?! Have you seen my house lately?”
“Lord, You want me to mentor that young girl at church? Haven’t You seen the way I lose patience with my own kids?!”
Then I hear the Lord whisper to me, “Do you have a willing heart?”
“But Lord, let me just get everything in order first, let me just get some control over some areas in my life, then I will be ready, Lord.”
“What? Give up control?”
“Oh, of course I trust You…But what If I lose control?”
“Okay Lord. But I have to warn You, things might get messy.”
“Oh, yeah, Lord. You are the one who makes masterpieces out of messes.”
“Okay, Lord, I am ready to be all that you have called me to be–imperfections and all. I want to grow in You, I want to flourish and shine for You. I want this garden to be in full bloom!
You see, we are all different. We are all amazing and beautiful colors in God’s garden. He desires for us to thrive, and grow, and shine, and flourish. But sometimes we hide beneath the leaves of life, not sure exactly how to bloom and let our colors shine. God says, “Let go, It’s okay. I’ve got you. You’re right where I knew you would be all along. I’ve never left you, nor will I ever. Let go. Trust me. You will be amazed by the things I can do through you. My child, I have called you to bloom.”
You don’t have to be perfect and have everything figured out before God will use you and do amazing things in and through your life. This is your season. Now go ahead, and bloom!

Psalm 30:11-12 Message Bible
You did it: you changed wild lament into whirling dance; you ripped off my black mourning band and decked me with wildflowers. I’m about to burst with song; I can’t keep quiet about you. God, my God, I can’t thank you enough.